When 2015 came along, I thought I’d try something new and ask God to impress upon me one word for the year, one simple word that might help focus my scattered interactions with Him and His Word, one simple word that might serve as a kind of Adderall for my soul.
Worth was the word that most resonated with me. The more I pondered it, the more I sensed a yearning to pursue and treasure the things of greatest worth in God’s economy.
I longed to experience a deeper awareness of my own worth in God’s eyes rather than fall victim to the self-deprecating thoughts that tended to harangue my mind.
I wanted to cultivate more loving ways to affirm the worth of those around me rather than allow bitterness, irritability, or apathy to control my attitudes and actions.
And I hoped to invest in more activities of eternal value rather than take the passive route by wasting time on mundane pursuits.
All this began last January, and here it is June. While my journal offers proof that I’ve at least thought about things of worth, there’s really little fruit. To be honest, in these last two months I completely forgot about that concept of worth. My ADHD of the soul has been out of control.
So I tell myself that perseverance is of great worth in God’s economy, that it’s time to start taking that little pill once again, time to once again be intentional about this.
It’s time to reconsider and re-embrace the concept of worth.
This time, though, I’m going to try sharing my journey. While I realize that the blogging world is being overrun by folks doing much the same thing, and chances are that few people will ever read these words, I also know that it’s the process that matters. Cultivating, creating, communicating with even a few people–there’s joy in that–and how much more if this helps me to focus on–and lay hold of–a little more of God’s grace while seeking what’s of worth in His eyes.